My "Abah"

22062010 - It's father's day in 2009.

The day I wouldn't want to celebrate ever. I've never celebrated father's day. To me, everyday is myself celebrating the wonders of how special I'm to have my dearest parents.

When my 'abah' left me *today* last year my heart sunk. I'm lost of words. My mind tremble. I keep asking why and how. I felt lost. I just couldn't hold and stand fight at the time. But, I realized I still have my 'mak'. I had to learn the fact of letting go.

'Abah', he will always be my hero forever.

The truth, this is the first time ever that I write something about my 'abah' since he passed away...

'Abah' I love you so much. no one could ever replace you in my heart. Thank you so much for everything.

Slow Dance .....

Feeling like dancing today ...no ...

There's just something. Take a slow dance so that we'll appreciate each and every moment of our life. Things happen for a reason. InsyaAllah, everything will be fine. ALLAH will help those who help themselves.

"Have you ever watched kids on a merry go round?

or listened to the rain slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's eratic flight?

or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down

Don't dance so fast

Time is short

The music won't last ..."

Take a slow dance dear ...

Aku di sini.

I don't exactly know where to start. I just feel like writing something. Starting today. There's days where we feel so tense. I am not trying to hide anything. I was just trying to feel good.

There's days before where pens and papers had been my closest friend. But then I leave. I left the pen and paper.

Today I feel like writing again. We have new tech. I appreciate my pen and paper. I still need them. I hope, really hope ... and I am still hoping.

Ya Allah, thank you for your gift . Alhamdulillah.